Saturday, August 27, 2011

Down the Road a Piece

Small Steps Strung Together Make the Journey.  The journey of growing as a woman and human, is a lifetime process, it is a constant lifestyle change, it is explored and discovered one step at a time.  Some steps are small baby steps; some are stepping back; some a steady stride forward; and some are huge leaps, of faith perhaps, or epiphany.

My life time of baby steps, in regard to my health and fitness and weight issues, were dramatically propelled forward in 2005 when I made a major life decision that severely reduced the level of controllable stress in my life.  It was with that decision that I discovered how stress causes me to gain weight, no matter how well I am eating or how much I am moving!  Since that initial 30 pounds dropped off, I have never looked back, and have been on a lovely path of learning and discovering how my body responds to various situations and foods and activities. Six years later, and I can share that I have lost almost 60 pounds, and kept it off.  It has been a slow and constant process of changing my life style; so much so that I have difficulty recalling specific turning points, and specific key elements.  Because I have chosen this slow methodical lifestyle change process, I know that I will be able to keep the weight off, and will continue to improve my health, weight and fitness.

Similarly goes my process of healing heart and mind.  It seems the more I heal and grow, the more I understand about what I need to focus on to continue to heal and grow.  Much like the layers of an onion, the removal of one layer reveals the next, and often prompts the shedding of tears.  With the guidance and comfort of God above, and a support system of friends, family, counselor and support group, I move forward a little more each day.  They are there for me, but only when I pursue and enlist their connection.

I find that my logical side is much more on board with this process, and that my heart/emotional side still holds some scared and hesitant postures.  Baby steps again.  My logical side reassures that timid side of my self, that painful as it maybe, it is necessary to face some things, and that once through the pain, we will be more whole, and more actualized.  I have discovered in my self that the more uncomfortable something is to face, the more important it usually is.

Everyday I try to make choices and decisions that best help me to move forward with my life and healing.  Healing my heart.  Healing my body.  Being WHOLE and being authentic.  Some days it just happens easily and naturally, and other days it is a very methodical and conscience behavior that I have to monitor, other days it is a train wreck, to learn from.  It is a lifestyle choice to be whole, to be in tune with one self, there for it is a journey, not a destination.

It is the process itself that helps us to be whole and ...

Live Well!